Heart Break Letter... ( my past life )

Now , ... I'm missing you . I'm missing you like never before. May be I won't be there to miss you anymore. I'll make sure that you never get to read this letter. But, when I really wanted you close by , you chose to walk away . Dreams turn into nightmares in no time. But if you walk backwards , if u try to go back , your dream turns into reality and I can't make this nightmare , reality , my reality.


You're , still , very much a part of my life . But Today something happened. I felt you were there with me .I wanted to cry a lot , But Couldn't . I wanted to talk, but nobody was there when I wanted them the most.
Am I that bad , dear ? Then why is everybody leaving me ?


So .... sorry for not entertaining you with a poem today, dear ....
My Rhyme is lost today ....... I'm the most "out of tune" instrument today .....
This poet knows when to accept defeat ... time defeated me ...so did my memories .....

be happy ....... stay safe ...... forget me (not) ......

Good night


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A failed attempt to sleep ( or to die ? )
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i dunno wat I'm writing or why the heck am i writing ....dunno nothing but this fact that I'm defeated .....

i'm defeated cuz i won evrything .......

well ..anyways this is not abt me ....its abt you ..its always abt you ..

i dreamt too much ... mu fault .....

you .. on the other hand wer always right from da very beginning ...

wat names i called you !
sheesh !

"my goddess"

i blivd my own "beauty and the beast " story will have a "happily ever after" ending .......

but yaar ..
beast must die ..........

so i'll die .......

thank you for ur tym ............

i have nothing against you .........

you're beautiful ... its not ur fault .....

its MY fault ...dat i'm not ..........



ride away .................


I'm a will-o'-wisp ................


false hope .......
a dreamer ..dats wat i am .

multicoloured hues ........


i said "You Made Me" a lover ............
NOW do ya understand y was i so damnd reluctant ?

yes i did turst you ...... (trust u know ??? ...i'll sleep over you ) ...... but i dint trust my luck .............
dats da only thing dat i cant control .......


but alas !
dats all past ..............

nd unfortunately I remain with them ...in past ...........


i'm done ...
this tym ... for good .........

you ...dear ....sleep well ........ this mad hatter's gotta go ..nd he most certainly will go .................

Sleep ... Fly ... Sleep

Sleep..
Like a lullaby sleeps
And rest..
On my mother's lips

Fly..
Through the dreamy sky
And settle
On the baby's eyes

Sleep..
Like a dew drop ,new
On..
A flower of honeydew

Fly..
With Wishes on wings
Stars..
With drowsy winks

Sleep..
End of days, you sleep
And dream..
Of lullaby from the mother's lips

Your Broken Halo ...

I forgot my gift
I forgot my rhyme
I never believed
This healer called time


I knew my job
I knew my thing , clear
I knew it will pain
Still, held her dear


Now I stand dead
My dead heart still beating
thoughts in my head
My world is befitting

Your broken halo ........

What Was "Unheard"...

She wanted time
I gave her 
Whatever
Little that is left

She wanted answers
I gave her
Whatever
Little brittle words that are left

......

She was afraid
With her fear oozing "care"
From everything she said !
I felt her , so near...

She was not sure
She wanted me close
I wanted her, warm
I wanted my rose

......

She wanted me
though she never said
But I could see
That she was afraid...

So I said ....
So I said ....

What was "Unheard"

Wishes On Wings

I'm " Wishes On Wings "...
I'm a shooting star ...


Like the one you wished upon last night !
A moment caught in flashing light


A shooting star's tale ??
my life is a spirit ....
Along my blazing trail
The wishes I lit
My story , they tell


My lover ..... the moon ,
The room of many colours .....
Lit with the liquid rays of her tune
Tryst goes on forever ...


My life .. is a poem ...
And poems .... are MAGIC !
My life is short
And its tragic ,
That I'm a "falling" star !!


Your wishes are granted
When you wish upon me
'Cause the "death wish" I planted
As i fall , free ...


My spirit gives your dreams
These rainbow coloured wings
As I close my eyes and die
Amidst the starry sky...


Only star dust remains.....

I'm up tonight.... can't even sleep

I'm up tonight.... can't even sleep
The Pain's too big for me...
May be you are..... you are in deep
Pain.... or in sleep may be

You want me to forget
Everything you said
You want me to start anew
But, tell me how
Can I ever forget
My life, my laugh and you?

My blood, still red, although thicker..., rushing to and fro
This lost little heart is scared to death not knowing where to go
Each droplet of blood, screaming like hell
Ringing your name in my veins like a bell
They don’t want to let you go...

I'm up tonight.... can't even sleep
The Pain is nibbling inside
May be you are..... you are asleep
Or your eyes are open.....wide ?

You want me to forget
Everything you said
And move along with the tide
You want me to break... break the promise
That I won’t leave your side...

My blood, still red, although thicker, flowing now slow
My grief, my pain makes me weaker, and my tears glow
Each tear drop now, your name they spell
Writes my sorrow, as I failed
Why did you have to go?

The Dark Portrait ...

A golden frame bedazzling
A dark portrait stares
Couple eyes talking loud
From the dark layers!

Glint of pain and vacuum reside
A portal to the other side
A Black Hole to world of non-existent
Where Time's the only known constant

A parallel universe you may think
And You'll miss it if you blink
those two eyes will take u far
across the universe ....distant star

Those two eyes .... i cannot sleep
they are nightmeres , i plunge deep
They're changing my life slow but sure
I'm becoming DEATH , dont know the cure

Walking through the portal to hell
I wont come back to tell the tale
Sapping my very life from me
Mystic eyes casting spell